It's been a while...

1 Corinthians 13:13 (NIV) ~ “And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.”

It never hurts to dream a little... Or does it? When it comes to matters of the heart it seems the littlest of things can not only hurt but they seem to be able to break you too! But what is life if you are not willing to take a risk. There are no guarantees in life, and if you don't take the risk you take the biggest risk of all, that horrible "what if?" What if I would have said this???  What if I would have done that??? What if, what if, what if??? 

According to TheFreeDictionary a risk is: 1. The possibility of suffering harm or loss; danger. and/or 2. A factor, thing, element, or course involving uncertain danger; a hazard. Yup that sums it all up... It's life! So if life is all about taking risks let's go to a well known saying "Everything happens for a reason!" The big questions here is does it? Today I feel that answer would be a big fat yes!!!  WOW when you least expect it and for that matter aren't looking for it, your life can turn completely upside down! And the risks here are all about, "Am I willing to find out what the reason is?" 

That answer is hell yeah I'm gonna take the risk! True I may get hurt, there may also be a bump or two, or three, more than likely more along the way... Hell it may all come down crashing around me :) But I know now I am strong enough, if I do trip and fall all I have to do is pick myself up, brush myself off, and chalk it up to lessons learned. It has been a long road over the past 18 months looking inward, fixing the broken pieces, openly and honestly creating the person I want to be inside (the outside that's a whole other thing, and I'm working on it), and then of course realizing what I want and deserve from a partner and here's what I came up with...

I want someone who thinks I am his favorite hello… and his hardest good-bye every day! 

I want someone who is my best friend, that laughs with me and not at me, that comforts me without passing judgment, someone that genuinely cares about my goals and dreams that will work with me to make sure those goals and dreams become reality!

I want someone to agree we will disagree, but we will never go to bed angry!

I want someone who is willing to share the good times and work through the hard times together!

I want to love him unconditionally like there is no tomorrow (because we never know when it will be our last tomorrow), and I want to be loved the same in return, like I know I deserve to be! 

I want someone who is willing to experience life together, but MOST important I want and NEED someone who is willing to let me be me, and enjoys me allowing and encouraging him to be himself too… Someone who will never question me or worry about my true feelings, seconding guessing if I am his and ONLY his!!! Because in reality we cannot spend all our time together and we need time to ourselves to make each other the happiest we can be :)

Damn I have a lot of wants! LOL, but the best part of wanting is when you get the following response after you ask, Let me know your HONEST thoughts... PLEASE!... "I love that email, I feel the same!"

Happy days and here's to taking risks... I am letting my defenses down. My heart has been broken once, let's see if the piece he is offering is real or just a line he is hoping I fall for. Either way I am looking forward to seeing how this ride ends since it looks like it's about to begin. 

That is all...